take me away...

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*sigh*

my work isn't working.

Running preliminary simulations to prove my research hypothesis. But it seems it's saying the hypothesis is shit. literally! I'm hoping i'm doing something wrong here.

*sigh*

Okay, getting back to work. Seems it's going to be a long night.

*$(#%^#@*()!

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...and so the week ends/ another begins

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Happy "Love Day"

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. Seuss

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la la la la...

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TGIF?

Memories: 2000/2001. Freshman year of college. I remember coming back to my dorm room and rocking my air guitar (and mic) to this song. Daily!

Since feeling is first...

I know i said i wasn't going to get sucked into the mushiness of the week...but I can't help it. There's so much lovey-dovey stuff popping up around me. I'll go back to being stone cold next week (or month). Bite me!

Here's one of my favorite poems by ee cummings:

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a far better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
--the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for each other: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

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i really want to go to there :o

yes...those are my crusty toes :)

It's been a while since i went to the beach last. I miss it. I miss the sound of the waves....the feeling of the soft sand between my toes...the cool breeze...the happy/vacation-y faces all around. Actually, i miss having outdoor fun (in the sun) in general. Altogether, it's a far cry from how i'm living now... *blank stare*

Anybody know where i can find PipeSim software?... Anybody?!

*crickets*

anybody??




album's on repeat on my ipod!

...

SiMulate deez ....

aah, and so the simulation begins. Again! It's about that time where i start running simulations for my research again. It seems like such a simple task in my mind but i get that horrid feeling that once i start, i'll hit a glitch somewhere and the frustration will begin. So, i guess u can say that i'm frustrated from the possibility of being frustrated in the future. hehe! Okay, maybe not - just complaining for the heck of it. The future of my research actually seems promising. The end actually seems near now. Just one more year to go...atta girl!

In other news, it's been above freezing temperature for the last few days - for that, i'm tres grateful! I get to wear fewer layers :) ...but come tomorrow, it's back to snow and ice and gloom and doom.

less procrastinating...more work. Ahem!

xoxo ;)

wait...wait...actually, I just went out and it's 61F. I'm... Like ...Confused!... and happy at the same time. *runs off singing "i feel pretty, oh so pretty...i feel pretty and witty and gaaaay"*

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but...but...

in the theme of "love week" eh?

I was at Barnes & Noble today...and I saw Valentine's Scrabble. Are you freaking kidding me?!? They'll come up with almost anything these days!

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"I wear my heart on my sleeve
like it's the new fashion"
- Lil' Wayne, Don'tgetit

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In the words of Liz Lemon: I want to go to there....

Today, I feel blue :$ ... It feels like the perfect day to sit home watching my collection of Audrey Hepburn movies, eating double chocolate cheesecake with vanilla icecream...OR...drinking the perfect bottle of red wine. Aaah well, moving along....

Hope you're having a happy saturday....

off to rescue a kitten from a tree....

xoxo ;)

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"Life is like a box of chocolates... you never know what you're gon' get!" - Forrest Gump's Mama

Mission Possible!

Soo... for whatever reason, I spent the last few days sleeping. Just sleeping... a lot! I felt like I'd been drugged or something - it was kinda hard to be productive. But i admit, I wasn't trying that hard in the first place. I blamed the sleepiness on the following things: tylenol (don't ask how), too much food, too much stress from the past couple of weeks, the cold weather. Now, I could make an argument for each of those things or all of them combined...but I'll own up and just say I was being LAZY. Not good for business.

So now, I'm at the library (yes, I'm procrastinating a bit by blogging) trying to get some work done. I figure that the trick to getting any work/studying done is to leave my home so I'm not 2 seconds from the bed/couch/fridge. It seemed to work while I was getting ready for my exam so I'll try making it a habit now. Hopefully the snow doesn't get too bad on any given day, giving me an excuse to stay home not doing very much. I want to schedule my Comprehensive exam by the end of this semester, which means I need to get somewhere with my research soooo, I gats to buckle up. Ahem!

Other than that, I discovered a new way to lose weight - stress! Apparently, I lost a lot of weight. Annoyingly, it was whilst eating lots of pizza, mc donalds and vending machine food. I wasn't even trying this time around. I guess the trick is to stay busy and think a lot. Lol! But really, I have a feeling it's all going to pile right back on now that i'm calmer. crappit! The sensible thing to do would be to head to the gym but..but...it's...cold! Well, we'll see... maybe I'll work out at home.

Ok, this post has gotten waaay too long. Getting back to work now.

Have a nice day - whatever's left of it :)

xoxo ;)

One Down!

...yaaaah guessed it! I PASSED MY EXAM!!! Woohoooooo :) It feels so surreal that it's over now...

One down!

Next bridge to cross - Comprehensive Exam...but that's not for another few months!
God is good! I can't honestly say that my passing that exam had anything to do with me. It all just went so smoothly, it was so easy to see the hand of God in it all....His mercies endureth forever!

So, what have i done since then?! I went out for drinks Friday night (sadly, was fast asleep by midnight)...Watched movies all day Saturday - saw Taken and Defiance. If you haven't seen Taken yet, you should. Liam Neeson is soooo kick-ass in it! And now, it's Sunday - went to church, saw more movies at home and did a lot of eating and sleeping and chilling....feels gooood!

Sadly, Sunday's coming to an end already and if i'm going to actually try to graduate within the next year, I better pick up on my work by tomorrow. But...yaaaay, I passed my exam :)) Just wanted to share that with y'all.

Until tomorrow's blog entry.... I'm OUT!

xoxo ;)

...and so the day cometh...hehe!

You might wonder why the Bible verses in the past few days... it's 'cause the WORD is about all that's keeping me sane/calm right about now. Today, I go through the final step of becoming a PhD Candidate. It's weird how i've been sorta looking forward to the exam - I couldn't wait to get it out of the way. Now that it's here, i still can't wait to get it out of the way...but I suddenly realize how important the exam is *gasp* *cringe*

Anyways, I'm here going over my notes, presentation, random knowledge...over and over again - praying for the best 'cause I can't even begin to imagine the worst. I know it is well! I'll be sure to let you know the good news later...

"But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him."
- 1Cor2:9

"Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us."
-Ephesians3:20

"The king's heart is in the hand of the LORD,
as the rivers of water: he turneth it whithersoever he will."

-Prov 21:1

I speak life...

On this day, I confess:

1. I am blessed and highly favored.

2. No weapon fashioned against me shall prosper.

3. I have more understanding than all my teachers: for thy testimonies are my meditation.

Ecclesiastes 3: Time...

¹To every thing there is a season,
and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

²A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant,

and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

³A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down,

and a time to build up;

⁴A time to weep, and a time to laugh;

a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

⁵A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

⁶A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

⁷A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

⁸A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war,
and a time of peace

...

"If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving,
you lose that courage to be,
that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all.
And so today, I have a dream. "

-The Trumpet of Conscience, Martin Luther King Jr.

Street Lights...

Let me know, do i still got time to grow?
Things ain't always set in stone
That being, now let me know
Let me

Seems like street lights, glowing
Happened to be just like moments
passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and paid my fare
See, I know my destination... but I'm just not there!

-808s & Heartbreak: Street Lights

I love this song...as simple as it is. Been listening to 808s & Heartbreak all day... surprisingly good study music. I actually really love how different it is from his other albums...

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...

words every girl wants to hear/read/feel... from the right person, of course :)

from the movie Love Actually... probably the sweetest part of the movie.

Below Freezing....

This is how i feel. Everyday! It's so cold out! It's been below freezing EVERYDAY since i got back...and it's supposed to snow all week. No matter how many layers I wear, I'm still freezing. Why isn't it that human beings get the option of hibernating throughout the winter and coming back out into the world in the Spring - all nice and refreshed?!

Aaaah, off to make some hot cocoa and snuggle up by my books....don't you just wish you were me right about now?! LOL!

Stay warm kids!

xoxo ;)

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Lifted... :)

"Oh God,
that ceiling that we were trying to break through
is now the floor
of A NEW DIMENSION...
ANOTHER LEVEL...
A DEEPER LEVEL...
Lord, take us deeper!"
-Israel Houghton

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Can't...breathe!!!!

I just turned in the proposal paper for my Candidacy Exam. I can't breathe....my heart's beating super-fast! I didn't really think I cared much but I'm scared shitless at the mo'. I hope I didn't just turn in rubbish. In a week, I have to give a presentation on the paper. Crappit! Anybody know a hole I can go hide in for a while?!

Okay, okay... goodness and mercy shall follow me, all the days of my life! AMEN! I believe and receive it. Now I just need to freaking calm down and trust that IT IS WELL!

Have a great weekend!

xoxo :-\

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About me: Fun (or not so fun) facts... part I

1. Mint makes me hungry.
2. I hardly ever say no to vanilla ice-cream.
3. Like my ice-cream, I like my chocolate simple - plain milk, dark or white chocolate. No nuts or fruits... maybe caramel or a simple wafer... u get what i mean!
4. Seeing as my first 3 facts are food-related, I'm guessing u can tell I love food!
5. I'm the last born in a family of 5 kids...No kids of my own (yet) but I've got 2 nieces and 2 nephews and i love them to tiny lil' bits.
6. I'm working on a PhD. Maybe i'll change the world someday!
7. I smile a lot. A whole lot. Not the creepy kinda smiles though...but I hardly ever have my poker face on, unless I absolutely have to.
8. I'll probably always be a kid at heart. I'm very playful.
9. I love drinking hot tea. But when I've got a cold, I gravitate t'wards lots of cold drinks!
10. I've got a soundtrack in my head for almost every scenario.

Happy New Year!

I realize that we're already 21 days into the new year but... I kinda started mine off late. Kinda sorta! I can't believe it's 2009 already! I feel like 2008 just went right past me - I'm not even sure I achieved that much all year... that's gotta change!

So, how's it going so far? Not so great - at least, I don't think so. Some ups, some downs... now it's somewhere in-between. I could sit and sulk and waste another year OR sit-up, focus, and make the most of this year. I choose the latter! I'll move forward. Like fine wine, I plan on getting better with age. My only resolution for this year is to be a better person in general...hopefully, that goes well.

Happy New Year!

May this year bring you love, joy and peace - love that is unending, insurmountable joy, and peace that surpasses all understanding. Amen!

Christmas is in a week!!!

"For God so loved the world,
that He gave us His only begotten Son
that whosoever believeth in Him
shall not perish, but have everlasting life."
- John 3 vs 16

I've been so busy getting excited about the holidays...getting things ready... that I totally forgot the reason for the season. The above verse explains it all!

I'm so in love with Jesus!!!

Constant State of Going Nowhere - (Panic Attack)

I wrote this a few years back
... and yes, it's random. Sue me!...or enjoy :)

A whirlwind surrounds me
I stand still, but time moves on
A million and one thoughts running through my mind
Hold me down, keeping me here
A frustrated state of mind
An angry place to be
But still, it becomes me

In a constant state of going nowhere
A whirlwind surrounds me
But I stand still
Longing to stand tall
Longing to break free
Free from these four walls
Feeling closed in...I find it hard to breathe

So many voices telling me what to do
My chest feels locked in
The breaths are quick and short
I'm holding on

Perspiring

In a constant state of going nowhere

Quick thoughts; Sweet thoughts -

Love, Family, Chocolate
A first kiss, A first date
The sunrise
My baby's eyes
A warm embrace
A gentle touch
The simplicity of it all

That smile...makes it all worthwhile

Breathe easy

Live.

Psst...

*note to self: it's almost over!*

xoxo ;)

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I need you now!

This image clearly expresses how I feel these days... in need of something deeper, greater, meaningful... life with meaning! I don't want to waste a second of another day doing things that don't matter. Life gets so busy - there's so much noise out there. There are mundane routines and expectations.... just a whole lotta noise!...Much ado about nothing :p

My greatest fear used to be that I'd leave this world without meaning something to people - without leaving an impact on people's lives. Now, I don't want to leave just any kind of impact, I want to be a blessing - just as I've been blessed...but then I forget "me" every once in a while. Aaah well!

Here are some of the lyrics to the song "I need you now" by Smokie Norful :

"Not another second

Or another minute
Not another hour of another day
But Lord I need you right away

If I never needed you before
To show up and restore
All of the things that I let slip
While I was yet searching the world for more

The true best friend I have indeed
You're my best friend; I know indeed
I stretch my hands to thee
Come rescue me
I need you right away!

The agony of being alone
The fear of doing things on my own
The test and trials that come to make me strong
The feelings of guilt, hurt, shame, and defeat
The way the trials that beat upon me
But to know Lord - that in you I've got victory "

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this is my life...

...for the next month (and some) especially. My candidacy exam is finally scheduled. One would think that with the amount of anticipation I've had, I'd be ready for the exam but - au contraire!
And i'm going home for christmas so I need to get as much done as possible before I leave.

*scream*

Hellllpppppp!!!!!

Okay, off to make myself useful!

xoxo ;)

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:)

Just saw this image on a friend's blog and fell in love with it. Hehe! A woman after my own heart.

Bump the hammock... pass me a cig ;)

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Mmmmm....

Oh, what I wouldn't give to be in that hammock right ...about ...now!


xoxo

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*Sigh*

Nope.
*dusts off Bible*
In search of answers!

---->

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Defying Mediocrity

Never settle for less!

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Dreamer...

"You can only wake up once from a dream."
- Unknown

image: The Romantic Dreamer, William Edward Milner (Victorian Painter) via JimiAndEllen

Have you ever...?

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it...
Have you ever thrown a fistful of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said i just don't care?

It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
The breathe before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

It’s only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breathe before the kiss
And the fear before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

- P!nk, Glitter in the Air

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Wow...

I remember when I used to think this was money. Wow! *smh*