my heart can't take it!!!

Watching a Lakers/Celtics game... and it's been up & down... way too close... i sit here getting high blood pressure while these folks are making their millions. *sigh* ... it sucks being a fan. That being said,  LET'S GO LAKERSSSS!!!!

UPDATE: We woooonnnnnn!!!!!! :D

emotional rollercoaster...

Last week (or well, this past week) I was making fun of a female friend of mine that was a basket full of emotions, for no apparent reason whatsoever. I'd be like "common woman, get a hold of yourself! lol!" and she'd promise to snap out of it... and call the next day making fun of herself for yet another "spasm" and I'd just sigh and shake my head, wondering about my fellow female specie.

Karma's a b#$^ch! Today I've probably experienced every random emotion known to man at different hours of the day. Why? I have no freaking clue. It's been one of those reaaaallly random days for me. It's terribly cold out so I was gonna use that as my excuse to sulk and stay in bed and do absolutely nothing all day. But then, I hate when I'm emotional and I can't place my finger on a particular reason why. I like to think I'm super-strong and reasonably-behaved for the most part... So, I picked myself up, took a shower, got dressed and headed to school to get some work done! Yes, on a Saturday. How's that going so far? blaaah.. dunno... I'll let you know when I do. At least I'm out of my house and attempting to get ish done :-)

Perhaps it's just the winter-blues?

blaah!

Is anybody out there?

lol

ok ok... back to work!

...

... but c'est la vie :-\

Golden

"Take me back in the days when loving was pure; 

love ain't going away, love is always secure;

life's not always perfect but love's always forever;

let's let true love connect, let's try lasting together..."

-Golden, Chrisette Michele

Gosh, I love this song so much! I guess i've been listening to the album a lil' too much and it's been randomly singing in my head. The lyrics to this song and "love is you," get to me ALWAYS! I would absolutely love to sing one of these songs with a live band sometime in the near future!!! *music-gasms*

Ok, just wanted to share some good music y'all!

TGIF :-)

writing...

Writing is therapeutic, though I'm not quite sure what part of me needs healing. I started to type... not really sure what I wanted to say, but quite sure that it needed saying. I feel strong and yet I feel broken. At times I'm not sure whether to rejoice or let the tears pour - so I stand strong, and emotion evades me.... not quite sure if it's pride or maturity that has taken precedence.

I don't like the cliche woman that cries at will for any and everything and lives life off her "feelings." I'm quite bothered by that woman. Lol! I believe in feeling but I also believe in logic... and I try to find a way to make the two mesh as often as possible. Of course I'm not made of stone so I occasionally let my heart lead my decisions - sometimes it's quite freeing, and other times it's just damn annoying.

The one thing that is somehow always comforting is Writing... so I write about nothing and everything. Often times it reads as gibberish but I feel so much better when I'm done.

So... I'm done.

Perhaps I'll go write some more of my dissertation - now THAT kinda writing is never really fun 'cause it's necessary and overly structured. But a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do :p

...

And you will find no fear here, in unkind words or the hardness of others.

And you will find no sadness here, in the meanness of the world, in the anger that comes from those who feel small.

And you will find no hurt here, in a million insults or a single, softly spoken lie.

Because only a hard heart shatters.

Only a hard heart, breaks.

{image and words via I wrote this for you}

2010!!!

AWESOMENESSSSSSSSSS!!!!

Okay, so i'm pretty excited to be starting a new year (yes, i realize this post is already quite a few days into the year)!

There's so much hope I have poured into this new year and I pray it turns out a million times better than 2009. There'll be lots of new beginnings, and I pray God sees me (and mine) through each of 'em.

I'm a tad home-sick (as usual) but i'm sure it'll wear off soonest. Lots to be done and little time to get 'er done... sooooo LET'S GO PEOPLE!!!!

I pray this year turns out beautifully for you, and that you leave the year with greater strength, joy and hope than you imagined!

*happy dance*

xoxo