Chooo Choooo....

I lost my train of thought!...It's been missing for a while now :(

if you find it, by any chance at all, please let me know.

Signed,

Owner.

image via Bengalooru Baadshah

Psalm 121

Lord, I will lift my eyes to the hills
Knowing my help is coming from you
Your peace you give me, in time of the storm
You are the source of my strength
You are the strength of my life
I lift my hands in total praise to you!


Yes, it's the concise (song by Richard Smallwood) version but it's been in my head all day. My brain feels like mush...my research work is suffering from mushed-brain syndrome with side-effects of laziness, zero-motivation and overall "blaa-ness." I'm praying for some direction in life...you know, once again, the big golden arrow showing me exactly where to go and what to do and HOW to do it all. Until then, I believe and I recieve all that's been promised. amin!

I'm a Libra ?!?

So, I'm really not into zodiac signs and bla bla... but in my usual style of procrastination, I decided to look up the personality traits of a Libra woman from all sorts of random websites and here's what the consensus was:

- only sign not represented by a human or animal...makes a libra naturally unique
- The sign (scales) represents a libra's need to be fair and balanced in everything in a detached way
- slight perfectionist
- has good observation and perception skills
- narcisstic
- desires popularity
- loves art and beauty
- loves intellectual conversations
- hates being rushed, or making pressured decisions
- loves mingling
- has a natural ability to make relationships work
- though self-sufficient, is not happy alone
- thinks like a man, but reasons like a woman
- freedom-loving

Although some of these (good and bad) are true...I find it very hard to agree with a chunk of 'em. But I guess that's what the general idea is about the libra. Aaah well, thank God my stars don't determine everything about me :)

Ok, i'm getting back to work. Gosh!


image via: libra.arollo.com

I wrote a good omelet...

I wrote a good omelet...and ate a hot poem...
after loving you...

Buttoned my car...and drove my coat home...
in the rain...
after loving you...

I goed on red...and stopped on green...
floating somewhere in between...
being here and there...
after loving you...

I rolled my bed...turned down my hair...
slightly confused but... i don't care...

Laid out my teeth...and gargled my gown...
then i stood...and laid me down...
to sleep...
after loving you

- Nikki Giovani

"If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or

reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want,

and all that is left is a compromise."

-Robert Fritz

The kid in the corner...

There's always that kid in the corner...
that kid that's alone...
that kid that pretends to want to be alone because he's that kid that was never really noticed...

Would you please say hello...
or maybe nod like you even see me...

Would you please make an excuse...
when you don't invite me out with the other kids...

Would you please pretend to care...
when you see me bent over, red-eyed, holding back tears

You might not care for me, but sometimes it's okay to pretend to...
I dress in grey, hoping i'll blend into the walls, giving you reason to not notice me...

Then i can say "Ah, my colors didn't stand out - that's why I'm so invisible"

La vita e bella!

I'll admit... it's been a while! At first, I wasn't updating my blog because I was busy being a student... and then I had nothing to write about....and then I had too much to write about (and started writing but never finished any actual post)...and then I went on a mini-holiday ...and now, I'M BACK ;)

My birthday was last week...yaaay! Went to St. Helier with my family and I had the most AMAZING time. I'm not sure it had a lot to do with the place - I know it had a whole lot to do with the people. I was surrounded by so much love that I wanted to cry every other second... lol... and i'm sooooo not that person! No, really...i'm not! It was just so freaking overwhelming!

So...what next? More of the same, probably! I realize that I'm not much of a party animal, as i'm still recovering from the mild (but endless) partying last week...hehehe! But really, all i've learnt in the last couple of weeks is to try to live life to the fullest...otherwise you get to miss out on sooo much that's out there....and really, you only get one shot at life!

That being said, I've played soooo much that I have a huge amount of research work to get back to *scream* ... like, yesterday....if I want to graduate any second soon! I guess it helps that i'm majorly jet-lagged right now so I'm waking up crazy early....now I just need to actually get work done While I'm awake.

OK, it's over and out for me. I'm off to start my day the proper way.

God bless!

xoxo ;)

Wisdom... part deux

I previously blogged on this topic because it's on my mind every once in a while... and I just came about a clever short film with some of my favorite artists - Wole Soyinka, Robert Redford, Alan Arkin, Judi Dench, etc. - speaking briefly on Wisdom (and life...and love).

Click here for the video.

Enjoy!

"To wish you were someone else

is to waste the person you are"

- Unknown

There are many things
That will keep me loving you...
And with your permission
May I list a few...

The way your smile just beams
The way you sing off key
The way you haunt my dreams
No they can't take that away from me... :))

- Sarah Vaughan

Music

I was just listening to Ella Fitzgerald's Someone to watch over me and I suddenly got a very nostalgic feeling - I miss the days when music was MUSIC. Sometimes I feel like I was born into the wrong generation. Mainstream music like "my lipgloss...is poppin" or "bump and grind" or "Umbrella..ella..ella...eh eh"....is that really all we can come up with these days? Whenever I listen to the radio now it's really more for the comedy of what's out there than actual appreciation for the musical talent (because I find it so hard to find any these days...it's so RARE).

To Music:

You are more than words...
You are strings, you are drums
You are notes on a page
You are an outlet for my rage
You are hums and snaps
And stomps and claps
My soprano, my tenor
My alto and barritone
All fuse and form beautiful sounds
That express emotions so profound
To you Music - and all you have been to me
To you, and all the substance you bring
I'll hold on, only to your best
Until we meet again.

A day without laughter,

is a day wasted.

- Charlie Chaplin

Heart don't fail me now...

So, for whatever reason, I can't seem to get the song "Journey to the Past" from the movie Anastasia to stop singing in my head. In my mind, I'm in a large garden, surrounded by pretty flowers, twisting a bright yellow umbrella, in a pretty sundress, belting out the lyrics to the song...

"Heart don't fail me now

Courage don't desert me

Don't turn back now that we're here...

People always say

Life is full of choices

No one ever mentions fear...

Or how a road can seem so long

Or how the world can seem so vast

Courage see me through

Heart I'm trusting you

On this journey...

To the past"

Soo, I'm not taking no damn journey to the past (Amen) - been there, done that - but I feel like i'm on an interesting journey at the moment. A whole lot of "don't knows" and "maybes" and "perhaps" and "we'll sees" going on with me. Ever wonder if you're defintely where you should be?... It's always great when you cross that line (whatever it might be) but then there's always something else that needs to be done. Once you answer all the hows and stop asking the whys so much, I guess getting ish done isn't so hard. But there are times I gotta ask - WHY?!?! - and I wish I'd get some earth-shattering sign from above and know for sure that I'm exactly where I should be.

Clearly, I'm up working late. Random musings. I'm tired....but... Sleep is for suckaaas!

Don't worry, be happy!

Everyday, I wake up and decide that I'm Happy! That's what makes me who I am - the fact that I decide to be happy. Some might call this a disillusioned way of life - I call it contentment. There's always going to be some thing random that will attempt to take your joy away - illness, breakups, exams, stupid people, bad weather...really, it's just as easy to wake up and stay in a bad mood all day. Lol!

...and happYness always rubs off on the next person (as long as you don't over-do the "perkiness" - then it just gets annoying!)

Have a great weekend people! I'll spend mine running simulations for my project - Oh what fun!

Goodbye Summer, Hello Fall...

Dear Summer,

I can't believe we already had our last day together and we'll have to part ways for many MANY months to come. It's been really nice knowing you. It's one of those times that i'll say "it was good while it lasted" and actually mean it. No, Really!

We travelled together and shared lots of laughs. We got to hang with friends and family...got some work experience, lost (and then gained) some weight. You showed me the beauty of the world again, like it should be seen - with the sun shining most hours of the day. You helped me make important decisions - growing mentally and spiritually. How could I not love you?

Now it's getting to that time - when dresses will be out and sweaters start creeping in. The leaves will begin to dry up and fall 'til all the trees are bare. Short shorts out - long pants and thermals are in. No more outdoor picnics or laying on the grass. No more long walks on the beach or outdoor swimming.

Goodbye Summer... I'll miss you!

Hello Fall!

I believe we've met many times before...but it's never quite-so-great with us. This time around I'm gonna try really hard to embrace the change you bring. It won't matter that I was standing under a tree for some shade today, but instead dead leaves kept falling on my head. It won't matter that you'll force me to wear extra layers of clothing to keep warm and sane - no, I'll embrace it. I'll go out more, travel more, make more friends, pray more, exercise more...I'll pretend it's a new year and start afresh...

Hello Fall! It's me, Polly. I believe we might actually have something good going this time.

L O L

So, I just heard a quote that I think is really funny:

"It's like running into a lion holding a gun. It doesn't look good...but you can't quite tell why."

...and you can't even imagine how accurately it describes the situation that was being discussed at the moment. L O freaking L!

Skip, skip...

...skip to my loo...skip to my loo my darling!

I'm doing my happy dance! A lil' somn like the funky chicken!

yeaaaaaaaaa, maayn!

whatcha know about that?!

Yes, I noticed all the exclamation points too... deal with it! ! ! !

:)))

Bla...

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising everytime we fall." - Confucius

It seems like I'm having one of those days...one of those weeks...one of those years?! Lol! Ok, now i'm reaching! But yea, there's always something that seems to be going not-quite-right but somehow God reminds me he's still in control. That's really about all the comfort I have now.

August is almost over. Wow!

I might have my candidacy exam in a week. Wow!

Ok then... I guess I'm off to study...or sleep...yea, study! Yea...that!

TGIF

"I'm pretty sure there's a lot more to life than being really, really, ridiculously good looking...And I plan on finding out what it is." - Derek Zoolander

...that's kinda how i feel today....really really ridiculously good looking! Lol!

Off to find out what else is out there...TGIF!

I carry your heart with me...

A poem by E. E. Cummings (image via national geographic)

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear;
whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)