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I think this is the third time I'm seeing this movie and it's still not old! I love how simple & pure their love was... even in their old age. I pray i'll love my husband in the purest of ways, even when we're old and grey... that we'll still make each other laugh and smile and have the warm and fuzzies, forever and ever. Amen!

moving along...

Oh, how I loved Tupac. As troubled as he was, his words were so honest and he spoke to the schizophrenic in most of us (yup, that includes You). I am very guilty of over-analyzing situations, sometimes to the point where i'm obsessing over just ONE thing. I'm learning to move on though, but it's not always an easy task...really, sometimes u just need to leave the pieces on the floor and move on!

life's not promised - RIP MJ and Farrah!!

Michael Joseph Jackson, 1958-2009

Farrah Leni Fawcett, 1947-2009

I'm exactly where i'm supposed to be

At times in life I question the things around me. Sometimes, i even question the people around me. I wonder just what part of my life is real and what part is make-believe. Sometimes i wonder if the life i'm living is the life i should be living at this very point in time. I wonder if the mistakes i've made in my past have made me stronger or if they've made me more fearful of change. I wonder if my "lost ones" really have ended up in heaven or if i'd just like to believe so. Heck, sometimes i wonder if i'll go to heaven if today was my last day. My mind is a very strange place to be, but I love that i'm still able to question the things around me.

I'm not crazy - not certifiably anyways - but I have many personalities in my head. Most of them are friends and live on the same general page, and some just really don't belong (i'm working on 'em though :p) . I guess that's why some days i'm bursting with confidence and other times i cower in a little corner in my mind. For the most part, i've learnt never to show fear/insecurities because people feed off what u give them... so i'm good on that front. But then, like everyone in this world, i know that i'm not perfect and there's so much building left to be done. However, these many parts of me make me who i am - the person you've come to know and love :) ... or well, the person you're still trying to figure out... The Onion :))

I live in a bubble, for the most part. Few friends, family, school...very basic nucleus. Every once in a while i re-examine the bubble and make some adjustments but for the most part, God has blessed me with fantastic people around me, and I try to keep things as they are and show them as much love as i can.

I thank God that i was born into this life, this body, this family... and i do not claim to deserve any of it - i can only be thankful for God's grace. Too many times I see things/people that make me question the world and how unfair life could be. Like hungry children, people born into poverty, war, unhappy homes... i've never had to experience these things and i'm thankful that God has blessed me thus far. I pray it remains this way, and that my circumstances gets even better... even though that may seem selfish. I also pray for God to somehow make me a blessing to these people that have "less" somehow. I believe there's no point to life if you can't be a blessing to those around you.

On another note, the Bible says that "your gift shall make room for you" and it also speaks of using our talents wisely. I have few talents that are obvious to me but I haven't quite figured out how to use them wisely. Ever so often i forget that they exist until they randomly surface and someone shows appreciation. The whole point is not the appreciation, but to use my talents as a blessing...whether they're recognized or not. God give me the grace to figure this out with time.

This has been a long note about my random musings - the things that have been at the forefront of my mind recently. The world seems to be in a state of unrest and sometimes I avoid the news because I know it's mostly bad news and my heart can't take it. So many people dying daily, for no apparent reason - other than being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Or was it really their time? I find it hard to understand sometimes. I just choose to believe that personally, I'm exactly where i'm supposed to be... and i need to make the most of my every day.

IF

- poem by Kipling

IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

Lakers-15, Phil Jackson-10, Kobe-4, FIsher-4!

We making history baby!!!!

Congratulations to the Lakers!!!!

Hi Haters :p

LAKERS UP 3-1!!! Post-Game Analysis...

Two hours before the game, Kobe’s out on the court practicing free throws. Why, you ask? Because them free throws cost the Lakers the last game. Think about it, the Orlando Magic made history in Game 3 with their shooting percentage and YET they won by only 4 points. So of course we knew to expect nothing but greatness from the Lakers tonight – on both the Offensive and Defensive end. The key players for tonight – I gotta say – were Trevor Ariza and Derek Fisher!

Yes, the Lakers stomped all over Amway…but not ‘til the 3rd quarter of the game. The Lakers started off a bit slow, and “skip to my loo” was making us all skip to start off, but we knew the magic couldn’t last very long. With less than 4mins left in the 1st quarter, Gasol and Bynum had already drawn 2 fouls. Bynums fouls are understandable, he’s still somewhat injured so it’s okay to take 1, 2, 3 …6 for the team. But Gasol – common man, the Lakers need you nice and foul-less (or well, with as few fouls as possible) in the game. Dwight had 11 rebounds and 3 blocks already in the first 9 mins of the game… dammit! 6 turnovers for the Magic with 2mins left in the first quarter, and none on the Lakers – damn right! But all in all, the Lakers played like CRAP in the first half of the game

HALF TIME – Lakers are down 12 points (37-49) and at this point guys, I switched to HBO to watch reruns of The Wire. Yes, I’m a punk ass – sue me! But, I had espn.com open on my laptop and I was refreshing the page to see what was happening.

3rd Quarter – Lakers defence and Trevor Ariza’s offense are ON POINT! Apparently Ariza was wide awake and making plays. Dude got 13 points in the 3rd quarter and pretty much secured a lil’ somn for the lakers – gave ‘em some hope. We end the quarter at 67-63!

4th Quarter – I’m wide awake and a lil’ high off the Sangria I’d been sipping on, but hella happy that the Lakers were back in a position to actually compete in the game. And it starts off with Odom making a real nice 2pt-er! It’s pretty much basic basketball all through and I can’t help but gain some satisfaction in the fact that Orlando players are missing free throws this time around and making more turnovers. It sure as hell works for the Lakers. And the Magic are up a minute to the game ending but Derek Fisher ties the game with 4.6s remaining. Hells yea!!! And so, we go into overtime with 87-87!

OT - With an assist from Kobe, Fisher makes yet another clutch 3pt-er (never rule out the veterans kids!!!) and Pau Gasol makes a dunk while getting a flagrant foul from Pietrus. And just to piss the Magic off, he also makes the free throw. So ladies and Gents, Lakers win the game 99-91, giving them a 3-1 finals lead.

So kids, do you STILL believe in Magic? Cause all I see is purple and gold fairy dust all over Amway Arena!

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Game 4: Let's Go Lakers!!! BEAT Orlando!

via Getty images

Happy Wednesday!!!

saw this image and i totally LOVE it! Is it wrong that i'm really considering dressing up my daughter(s) like rocker chics for their first costume parties. LOL! I think other parents might be freaked out but it's sooo cute!

images via loveisjustlove

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still working on finding the right balance to things... nobody said it was gonna be easy - but it sure will be worth it!

images via jokc

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YES!

Game 2 tonight... let's show 'em how we do this son!

1 down... 3 to go! let's go lakers!!!!

Update: 2 down... 2 to go! YES BOSS!!!!

lmao

saw this movie last night and it's freaking A! hilarious.... deadly wrong but freaking hilarious!

smile :)

yuup!

“There are two sorts of affection -
the love of a woman you respect,
and the love for the woman you love”
— Arthur Wing Pinero

...i'd like to believe that one would respect whomever it is that they love...that should be a given. No?

Playoff Finals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aaah! i can barely breathe... *sigh!*

9pm needs to come soooooonnneerrrr!!!!

The Lakers need to kick some Magic butt! mm mm good!

http://www.zshare.net/audio/6094495399062b46/

that's hot!

must be love...

So, I've been listening to the Ryan Leslie album while cranking some friggin numbers... working on my research...and I must say, dude's got talent. Waaoowweee! There's this song, Gibberish, that sounds like he's probably speaking mostly garbage but the production is totally SICK! I decided to look it up and see if it's really got any lyrics and it seems like most people online are wondering the same thing, but I think he just throws out a couple of sentences that make sense and then wraps up the verses/chorus with gibberish - hence the name of the song. I looked up the making of the song on youtube (see below) and I totally fell in love with his musical genius! Yea, he did get a lil' carried away with auto-tune but that can't even begin to take away from the hotness of the instrumentals or the fact that you can hear that he actually has a voice beneath all of that. Go on R Les... do your damn thing! hehe... okay, i think it's time to go sleep!




...and to think when he came out with "addicted" i just dismissed him as another random artist... silly me!

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"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen." — ~ Elizabeth Kubler Ross (via gatekeeper) (via jacyann) (via loveisjustlove)

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"Satine (spoken): Please don't start that again.
Christian: All you need is love.
Satine (spoken): A girl has got to eat –
Christian: All you need is love.
Satine (spoken): She'll end up on the street!
Christian: All you need is love.
Satine : Love is just a game.
Music begins
Christian: I was made for loving you, baby,
you were made for loving me.
Satine: The only way of loving me, baby,
is to pay a lovely fee."

Saw this image and now i've got all the songs from Moulin Rouge randomly singing in my head. I'm making it my soundtrack for the day - LOVE.IT! I think i'm way overdue another viewing/sing-along of the movie. hehe!