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Lord I come to you
I ask you to grant my request
The Prayer I pray today is different then the rest
The Enemy is threatened by the gift you've placed in me
Hear my earnest prayer, cover me

Jesus Say a prayer for me
You know what I need
Go before the father and intercede for me
The Enemy desires to sift me as wheat
but like you did for Peter, Say a prayer for me

For those who you've called
you fully equipped
To fight the wind and the waves
to captain the ship
So I don't mind the storm
I'm willing to sail
God cover me that my faith won't fail

(Say a Prayer - Donal Lawrence/Faith Evans)

This song is soooo ministering to my right now! *sigh

Don't Stop Believing :)

Song that's stuck in my head: "Don't stop believing... hold on to that feeling!" (By Journey) .... I even have a random pathetic dance to go with it in my head, air guitar playing and all!

Please & Thank You!

I'm a major advocate for saying "please" when you need something, and "thank you" when someone does something for you, no matter how little. My mama taught me right... so I (almost) always say my "please" and thank you."

I believe it's a simple sign of respect and appreciation when you say those two little words. That being said, I now realize that it's easy to say those two words in an insulting or unappreciative manner and THAT especially pisses me off. Examples:
1) "Could you please get the f*&^ng door? Thanks!"
2)"Please do a, b, c, d, e, f, g & z... Oh, and then r!" ... (then 5 hours later) "what were you thinking doing a, b, c, g & h? undo it please, Thanks!"
.... and the list goes on

I guess the summary is that if you're a douche-bag, then be who you are! Otherwise, say your please and thank you and appreciate the little things and the "little" people around you.... and every once in a while go out of your way to find out what you can do for them!... and then they can thank You for something for a change :)

Music Playlist...

My new favorite thing is "genius" on the ipod...I'm not sure why i never really used it before. But now i totally love not making my playlists on my own. But every once in a while it goes off on its own tangent with music. Like, for now, I started a genius playlist with Chrisette Michelle's song, Golden, and almost every song on the playlist is about heartbreak/lost love. Some of the songs include: Bad Habit (Destiny's Child), I Sit Away (Boyz II Men), Victim of a Foolish Heart (Joss Stone), What Were We Thinking (Joss Stone), Talking in His Sleep (Toni Braxton), Wreckless Love (Alicia Keys) ,Time (Neyo), In Love With Another Man (Jazmine Sullivan), Can U Help Me (Usher) .... and honestly, i didn't even know i had half these songs on my ipod. I actually have never heard some of them. hehe! but alas, the music got me feeling all heartbroken/in love/ "insert silly feelings here," and i was like wtf?!? The power of music! Me thinks i'm gonna switch to some more upbeat, bubble-gum, techno-type music instead.

ok... just thought to share...

more studying to be done :)

click songs for lyrics.. lol

Case of the mondays...

waiting...

everybody's waiting
for someThing, someOne, someDay -
the perfect time, the perfect one, the perfect day...
and in that process, we lose Today
and tomorrow we start again - trying to find our way
and if we fail we start the cycle again
forget today, let's wait - we'll wait again!

image via rlketcham
words via me

Yes!!!

Season 3 of Mad Men starts today!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! *hop, skip, hop*

Oooo oo oo Oooo oo oo!

lol :)

writing...

that's soo true!! The few times i'm actually completely honest about my feelings in my writing, i either tear up (or delete) whatever it is, leave it anonymous, or act like it was written by someone else. Either way, writing is my way of communicating with myself sometimes... lol, that way i'm not actually speaking out loud to myself but i'm getting whatever "it" is out there! It helps me put things in perspective most times. Then again, writing makes you so totally transparent to the world and i guess that's why people typically over-exaggerate or downplay stuff. Odd - I know!

The rules of engagement

"All persons entering a heart do so at their own risk. Management can and will be held responsible for any loss, love, theft, ambition or personal injury. Please take care of your belongings. Please take care of the way you look at me. No roller skating, kissing, smoking, fingers through hair, 3am phone calls, stained letters, littering, unfeeling feelings, a smell left on a pillow, doors slammed, lyrics whispered, or loitering. Thank you."
- via i wrote this for you

lol, just read it and thought it was rather interesting... the randomness that is the heart and the things we put it through!

45 Lessons of Life!

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me... It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone...
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will.. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others.. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ’In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

One day at a time...

I don't quite get it but I'm quite "blaah" when it comes to my research these days. Seeing as i'm currently working on my PhD, the research is All i need to do... it's what i wake up to do daily... but i've totally lost my drive and I don't know how to get back into it. And it makes life pretty annoying, seeing as it's what i need to "get out of the way" in order to move on with life but i'm really really not feeling it anymore. I'm literally taking it one day at a time. I feel like I just need to get through each day and hope all the work gets done somehow. I keep waiting for the "light bulb" moment where everything clicks, and there's "halleluyah music" in the background and I suddenly love what I'm doing again and I can't wait to get up in the morning and get to it and... and... and... I've been waiting for that day for over a year now and it's getting TIRED!
Options are as follows:
a) quit the PhD dream
b) switch research to something i'm interested in (but what if i lose interest in that, or it takes another 3 years out of me)
c) run off to some exotic island and start a fruit/coconut/bikini business (and/or)
d) hit the reset button wherever "it" all went wrong and get a do-over

frankly, i like options c & d...as unreasonable as they are :p

Ok, this is the point where i quit whining and get back to work... and you say a little prayer for me.